Trying To Conceive Episode

Assalamulaikum wbt,

Dah lama tak 'usik' blog ni..mcm dah bersawang pun ade rasenye hehe..Well, it's the 2nd month of 2015..Happy New Year to all! (^_^)

Ok, back to the real story lah kan iaitu trying to conceive (ttc). Dah nk masuk 6 thn since my first child Adreanna Syasya was born on May 2009..It's too sad bila semua kawan2 dah mula menambah anak year by year..in fact, yang kawen lambat dari i pun dah berderet2 anak..I wonder what is happening to me..Ok lah,kite cerita the chronology dulu eh..

Actually since 2012 I started ttc ni after abis masters..ingat senang la kot nk pregnant ni since yg first dulu tu senang gile..kawen sebulan dah dpt tau pregnant (kawen Aug, end of Sept dpt tau pregnant sbb alahan teruk gile mase tu)..well, tried and tried tak dpt..so I went to my Gynea (ntah btl ke tidak eja,malas nk pikir mlm2 buta ni hehe)..My Gynea ialah Dr Marlik Abu from Ampang Puteri Secialist tempat I bersalin dulu..then dia bg la ubat itu ini bla bla bla..tp takde jugak rezeki..then I kusut nk makan ubat2 spital ni so I stopped!

One of my frens, dia penjual shaklee yang sgt hebat duk jual itu ini begitu dan begini so I pun beli la satu botol supplement ni dari beliau iaitu Alfalfa..tujuan sbnrnye sbb I nk ikhtiar utk sembuhkan tangan I ni yg menggerutu sbb allergic sabun la habuk la ape la..so I mkn la supplement to about 2 months..first month mkn I period, mak aii..keluar ketul2 darah nye..ngeri tul..I whatsapp my fren tu tanya takpe ke kuar ketul2 tu dia kata maybe nk cuci darah2 yg tak abis keluar mase period dulu2..so ok la..sambung bulan kedua..pun sama gak kuar ketul2..masuk bln ketiga..guess what..tunggu2 period tak dtg lewat 2 hari I went to pharmacy beli UPT - perghhh pregnant! I was soooo happyy...dgn gembiranye whatsapp bgtau kwn I tu dan dia ucap tahniah. Tup tup masuk 10 weeks pregnant, hari pegi check up doktor kata I am sorry your baby dah takde..That was on July 2013..I punye la menangis semahu-mahunya and my daughter yg dah excited nak dpt adik tu mmg berkecai la harapan dia..Ok cut the story short, doktor buat D&C and I pun raya la dlm keadaan berpantang on 8.8.2013 which was my wedding anniversary jugak on that day..alahaii..sedih btl nasib..

Since then, I try dan try dan try dan terus mencuba..Sept 2013, I saw a fren of mine checked in kat facebook saying that she was at Dr Hamid Arshat's clinic..I said woww..she must be pregnant then..I pun PM la dia...she said she wasn't pregnant pun just follow up with the doctor coz she's having endometrosis..I pun cakap kat dia - Ohh I pun ade endo..(oh lupa nk bgtau..Dr Marlik diagnosed me as having an endometriosis few years ago and I dah went few treatments with him pun..)..ok then my fren said oh you can try Dr Hamid if you want.. tapiii masya Allah nk dpt appointment with him punye susah.. my fren tlg booked kan appointment for me on Sept 2013, guess what, the appointment date adalah on 20 Jan 2014..Haihh ape nk buat..sabar lah menanti..kata nk pakar..I ckp kat myself, ok suzy, ni last try ok..kalau takde jugak, redha je lah Syasya tu anak tunggal..(-_-'')

Ok, after 4 months waiting, mase yg ditunggu telah tiba.. 1.30pm I dah sampai kat parking tu..nak naik pun klinik belum bukak..2pm I pi naik bwk Syasya skali, my husband ade meeting he can't make it but after I merajuk akhirnye dia muncul jgk kat klinik tu hehe..dah masuk dlm klinik tu kene tunggu lagi coz I am the first timer kann...letak IC kat dlm bekas tu then after less than an hour nurse kat situ panggil nama utk timbang berat la check blood pressure and buat sedikit interview. After that, duduk blk tunggu lagi 10 minutes mcm tu nurse panggil nama suh pegi masuk bilik Dr Hamid Arshat...and bukak2 je pintu bagi salam..perghh, they you are..tak sangka dpt jumpe doktor ni live..dulu mase kecik2 I salu tgk dia kat tv..mase tu tak paham la ape yg org duk interview dia pasal sakit puan ni..well, he is very fatherly type dan sgt menjaga aurat patient..after dah cerita serba sedikit, dia suh masuk bilik utk scan..and guess whatt, I kene buat vagina scan yg sgt I takut..yg buat tu menantu perempuan doktor (I guess menantu dia sbb my fren and patient2 situ ckp tu menantu dia)..doktor hanya tgk kat screen aje..mase pegi tu I tgh period tp doktor a.k.a menantu Dr Hamid tu kata takpe boleh scan..masuk aje...adeiiii....ngeriii..and mmg tak selesa lah buat scanning tu!Tp kalau tak buat tu nanti dia tak tau la ape punca sakit kite ni apesal nye yg buat tak leh pregnant (eh ayat aku cam dah kelam kabut dah ni haha).

After dah abis scan, then doktor lukis laa mcm dlm gambar kat bwh ni..Dia kata tu retroverted uterus ke ape katanye..maybe you can guess la kan handwriting dia..Oh my..i was like..hmm..how come my uterus can be retroverted pulak..dulu elok2 je leh mengandung..I googled la jugak here and there katanye retroverted ni kedudukan uterus ke rahim ke ape tu tak betul position nya so sperm susah nk masuk..and during menstrual pun akan sakit darah akan tumpah ke belakang rahim la ape la dan akan menjadikan endometriosis..bila period mmg sakit..that's why I wonder kenapa bile I period je sakit gile perut ni padahal sblm kawen tak penah la nk period pain bagai..dulu tak penah tau pun ape rase period pain..

So yeahh..then I tanye ape solution nye..Dr Hamid tanye ape treatment yg I dah penah buat..I ckp la dah buat treatment yg stopkan period tu pun dah..dah buat 2x..after that I stopped coz dah penat mkn ubat spital..so ok then we do D&C Laparoscopy and I will repair everything dalam tu, kata Dr Hamid..(Eh mcm dalam buku cerita lak ayat I ni ahaha..) So, dia suh I pegi jumpe his Secretary dia Puan Rohana utk arrangekan pasal operation tu and guess whattt..the operation date tu hujung tahun wehhh 24 Aug 2014!!aduhaii..bapak lama gile..my fren punye kwn yg pegi jumpe Dr Hamid on the same day I pegi tu (ptg jgk appointment dia) tp dpt operation date on March!Hmmm.. tp takpe lahh..nk buat camana..dugaan Allah bagi suh aku tunggu nak tau I ni sabar ke tak ngn ujian Dia kot ekk..(tp mmg I tak sabar sbb umur I dah mid 30 wehh..mls la I tua2 nk pregnant lagi..penat kot..)

After dah abis semua bende I bersoal jawab dgn Puan Rohana secretary Dr Hamid tu so I pun bayar la bill..not bad la bill dia..maklum laa dia pakar dan sgt famous kot..harga camtu kira ok laa..I pegi specialist tak glamer pun lagi mahal dari dia..tu bill including ubat dan vitamin yg dia bg semua..ape lagi..I calit lah kredit kad  sbb 20hb mana nk gaji lagi ahahah..So this is the bill (nama I tutup la yer hehe)

And these are some photos yang I nak share ngn uols..The first photo is the guideline for new patients, and the second and third photo are my appointment card..card tak boleh hilang kalau tak kene denda..denda ape I tak tau la..ketuk ketampi atau lari keliling klinik tu kot ahahah..

Well, ok that's all for this entry.. kite tunggu la ape akan jadi kat I ni pasni..pregnant ke tidak ke..wallahualam..yang pasti I dah ikhtiar..kalau Allah takdirkan mmg anak sorg je..takpe lah..mungkin ade rezeki lain yg menanti Insya Allah..buat mase skarang I mkn je la supplement2 vitamin2 dan ubat2 yg doktor kasi tu dan jalani kehidupan seperti biasa..but one thing yang Dr Hamid pesan kan I - Jgn stress2, you still hv a chance..so ok la..i try to be positive la yer..

I hope you guys boleh jadikan reference especially for those yg ade masalah mcm I ni..sape nk share experience pun leh share kat comment yer..That's the purpose why I am writing this..lama dah niat nk tulis entry ni tapi sebab bz yg melampau mmg nk sentuh laptop ni jauh sekali lah. Till we meet again, bye! :)

LoveLove,

Suzy